I didn’t know you very well Chris, but I am extremely sad that you are no longer a part of our lives. I hope life up there in heaven is better for you than it was down here on Earth, and that your next life won’t be so painful. may you always be happier in the future…

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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA FUCKING LOL.

HOLY FUCK THAT’S HILARIOUS. good times…..

“Do you bite your thumb at us, sir?”

“No sir, I do not bite my thumb at you sir, but I do bite my thumb, sir.”

We’re starting that all over again tomorrow. help me!

We had to write a poem for English. Tell me what you think plz

A lone ghost in corridors, not a second glance nor a passing hello. A known face to some, yet just another figure to most. Laughter rings in my ears, Images flash across my eyes and solitude calls out, crisp and clear in the summer air.

A long evening spent recalling memories of the times gone by, The clock stares back, his hands a waving reminder of what has been and solitude calls out, clean and crisp in the summer air.

Days fly by, a blur of events, As solitude’s grip begins to weaken. No longer a ghost, but a living person. Though still without a second glance, a passing hello is now an every day event.

Another long evening spent recalling memories of times gone by. The clock stares back„ his hands a waving reminder of what has been and solitude’s voice is now a memory, a distant memory.

well, i suppose one could say it was worth a try. at least now im not in doubt :)

i hate being single….it sucks shit

its just gone 5 am on december 31st, 2009 and i cant sleep. i have this overwhelming feeling of emptiness inside me. odly, it isnt because 2009 is ending. I know why it is, but i don’t know why that emptiness is so strong right now. there are  3 main causes of this emptiness, and all have todo with women. god, females are complicated creatures!!!

The Primary cause is one of fear, but also unexplainable belief. She means the world to me, and I am scared to death for her at the moment. I, and nearly everyone I know, would collapse if she does. I never realised how much my world revolves around her until now. I would do anything to make this go away. I love her.

I feel like one of them, one who i was so proud of and happy to spend time with, i feel as if she doesn’t, and hasnt for a very long time, respect me. i feel like she’s been taking advantage of me for ages, and ive been too blind and kept hoping that i was just being accusational. but now i realise that i was right all along. and it hurts, it really does.

Lastly, I just wish she knew what I felt, how i felt, and felt the same way back. I can;t tell her because it would just make things so awkward between us, and i cannot do that. but, at the same time, how will i ever no what she wouldve done? confusion in this one makes the emptiness so much greater. why does life have to be so god damn confusing?

Well, anyway, 209 is drawing to a close, and one of these issues should mostly dissapear with the end of this year and decade. 2009 has been the best year of my life, despite the low points which have ceaselessly continued, as they will always do, in everyone’s lives. all I can do is hope and pray that 2010is just as good.

Happy New Year to all!!!

And good night morning xxx

Although school finished over a week ago,it has taken me a long time to really understand how I’m feeling. At first, I thought I was feeling regret and extreme sadness. Now, however, I realise that even though I will miss the poeple, the memories and the opportunities which Haileybury has, I am quite ready to leave. That isn’t because I’m sick of haileybury, because I’m definitely not. 2009 had been the most amaIng and memorable year I’ve ever had, and that’s what I’ll alwYs remember about haileybury the most. Melbourne High will be different, but I’m really looking forward to making a fresh start, making more friends and hopefully putting into practises what I’ve learnt this past year. I’m hoping there will be less romantic and sexual dramas there, because if there Re romantic or sexual dramas in a boys school, and I’m involved, well uh oh!!! 2009 will live in my memory forever, and I will sorely miss the times I spent. 2010 is bound to be an awesome year though. I don’t know anyone who went to melbourne high except Shane who didn’t love it. Anyway I’m talking to myself now. Thanks for the memories and goodnight xxxxxxxxxx

This post is mainly to attempt to express my feelings at the moment.

The canvas which Alyce and Alisha made for me was so unexpected I am still in shock a day nearly 2 days later. No, I didn’t cry (sorry, I’ll do better next time!) but simply because i was so stunned I just couldn’t believe it. No matter how many times I say ‘thank-you’ and ‘it’s amazing’, I will still never be able to fully express how touching it realy was.

This next bit has almost nothing to do with me, however I just found it really warming. Recently there has been a situation (not saying what who why or when). Nothing has ever shown how much of a good friend this person is until this situaion arose.

I have only 4 weeks and 1 day remaining at Haileybury College. in these last 4 week,s I just want to spend time with everyone that I love, and finish this year exactly how its been. virtually perfect.

Tina’s party was today. That was one maddd as party. Flour ice marshmellows twister truth or dare :):):) hope tee had as much fun as we all did